Ok back to May 14th.....He was here and I was his mother, now what?? I wonder if every new mom looks at the nurse with crazy eyes as they tell you where the 'call' button is on your bed then LEAVE you with your new baby. How could she just leave me sitting there with a fragile newborn? Didn't she know I hadn't done this before? How was she so sure I would do the right things? She clearly had lost her mind leaving me with him!! It was the first quiet moment I had had with him since he arrived, 'Lord thank you for giving him to me' I thought. My son started to cry, he needed me and you know what.....I some how just knew what to do. Sure I had questions and doubts, but ultimately I KNEW what to do. The nurse was privy to this information and that is why she left me so willingly. She knew that we mommies (even brand new ones) are amazing creations and know what to do. Even if you have never held a baby before I promise you, you will know how to hold yours. God, no wonder You sat back after creating us and said "It is good". The days to follow were a blur and full of moments where I second guessed whether I truly knew what to do. I had a mini battle with colic ahead of me that would leave me shell-shocked but even then, I knew what to do and I did it literally with my eyes closed!! That is another post all together.
I now understand why mothers love to celebrate their children's birthdays.....it was hard work and worth a celebration each and every year!! It is a place in which parents place stones of remembrance like the Israelites did in the book of Joshua after the Lord allowed them to cross the